Whenever you call, I'll roll up

Hello thurrrr,

I don't know what triggered me to go on blogger and write a new post but I'm here. Just kidding, I do know why, I was just checking my friend's blog and I was like 'what the hell' why don't I write a post on my blog.

I cannot believe that my last post was a year ago, how crazy is that? Time fly so fast that I think most of this year was a blur, a 'there' year. You know, like a year that was just 'there' nothing special. Sophomore year is pretty plain and boring, so why should I babble about my sophomore year? I don't think I can even remember what happened on the first day of school, heck, the first day of school on the new year (2011), or even yesterday. K, the yesterday part was a bit of an exaggerate but you see my point here? That I don't know what happened this year.

I became more fragile though, that I do know. Why? Due to several big problems, and lots of little problems combined together. Does that even make sense, I believe so.

I think I'll start updating my blog a bit more that I use to. For sure not once a year, maybe 4 times a year? Or if you're lucky, once a month!

But for now,
xoxo
ain.

Hello loser faces.

Oh em gee, I was scanning trough my blog, and I've realized that my first post was summer 2009. That was like almost a year ago. Now, Summer 2010 is coming. Joyful joyful. My heart skipped a beat everything I think about how fun summer will be with my girlies and em boys. I think my heart just skipped right now. See what i mean? See how excited I am for summer.

Not to forget that my freshmen year have been nothing but fun. Thanks girlies, Jen, Haya, Ahd, for making it obber fun and not boring. Though however, we had an argument and we totally handle it maturely and that is why we still click and as you may call it "best friends". I tend to keep from calling them best friend out loud because I'm scared of losing them as soon as I claim them as my best friend. However, I would say that they are.

Aina, stay strong love, 9 more days I'll be back. Not that you will read this, or anyone would for that matter.

I survived first high school year without having any big emotional boy-girl dramas. Oh I'm so glad. Ahmad is moving away, to Canada. I hate you for moving. I fell for you, and you never return back my love so I'm stuck. Well, in that case, fuck you. No, I would actually won't say that, I care about you too much to say that. Have fun there kay? you said you may come back. do come back. please?

SUMMER MOTHER FUCKERS!

misses.

wellll, i was just reading my blog. Today, I decided to visit my blogspot. And , i read through some of the post and now I realise just how much i miss writing my day and my feelings out. I guess, in a way, i love blogspot more than tumblr. However, I have started writing a personal diary, not online diary, handwritten ones. I guess there is where I write my deep deep feelings on, but it takes forever to write, and my hand hurtssss. So I guess, since no one actually know that I'm back on blogspot, i'll write every day like i use to. It feels great. well today, my girls and I are planning to go to a big big party. it was quoted on the invitation "will be one of the hottest party of 2010", well guess what hunny, you have to make it the hottest one. Since I've been cravingggg for a good party to go to.

Yesterday was kind of fun i guess, spend time with the usual. Jen, Haya, Aziz, Hashem and one oddly person was there. unexpected, labban. you weren't suppose to be there silly billy. pfft. i dont like you retarddd.hahahaha, but, apart from labban, all of those people helped me out yesterday. i had a huge breakdown. sorry peeps for being such a boob. such a party pooper. well today, i will get a little tipsy and forget all those problems i've been having and just say, fuck all bullshits.

here yee, here yee. this is the new me. the new rain. the new newrain. all happy, perky, cheerful me. fuck those problems. i got no problems no more. i'll take little matter on boys, and big on parties. yes. yes. that's my new resolution. not school no more, screw my failing grade. ill do whatever it takes to live my life as a normal teenager, not the teenager that lives in a cage no more. i'll make the best of what i got.
funnnnnnnn.

rain.

Moved to tumblr

officially moved to tumblr.
http://newrain.tumblr.com/

When zombies attack.

hahaha, the tittle was utterly out of randomness (:

anyways, I'm am so sick right now. So yesterday I sent mother to the airport then get back home and go online as usual. Then hachummmm, I sneezed.non stop. It goes on for 5 or 6 times. annoying? I know. Then it was about 1am. or so I was going to bed, but I couldn't so I went downstairs and my stomach started to demand for food. boooo. The only good food I saw was grapes. well I said to my self I'm just going to eat one, then nom nom nom I stuff more and more, how much I realise I was really hungry. I finished the whole bunch of grapes. Then I went back up, my body started to heat up. URGH, I couldn't sleep, but I listen to some soft melody music, sort of like a lullaby and zzzzz.

now, everytime I wanted to sleep I couldn't. My nose is blocked. effffff emmmm elle. yes it FML, which stand for fuck my life. urgh.

vulgar,
ainR.

You're so lame -.-

Mom: i think im sick, mata pon dah rasa panas panas

Nabil: nabil bukan mata je panas, satu badan hot

ain: oh dear god, bagi baldi

Nabil: buat apa?

Ain: nak muntah,HAHA

Nabil: laaa ingat nak baling air bagi nabil cool down

Ain: oh god -.-

hahahahaaha, you're so lame brother -.-

-

I think I want to write a list of things to do in malaysia so atleast I wont forget stuff, so hmmm :)

"I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to hug you, I have the ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart that’s aching to see you smile again."

Please take me with you.

Mom, take me with you? I need to get out of here. I do. please? bleh, no point of me saying this anyways, it won't work, So here you go, have a safe trip over there. I know you'll have fun. Hug charlie for me, take good care of him. Tell him I miss him. please mom, take good care of him. Oh send my regards to the peeps, the family for me.urgh, I so envy you right now. Whateves, there's sale going on here soon. So yeah, beat that.

oh wait, no. Shopping over there is so much better. so yeah you did beat it.
Well soon I'll be visiting you, so yeah my brother and I are going on the plane alone without any adults. Oh no, brother you are technically 18 -.- so you are responsible for my action and my bags. hahaha. yesh, carry it for me.thankssssss.

love you moooooooooom :)
ainR.

Quotes.

I think I'm going to start posting more quotes on here that I've read on net. I know I have been posting alot, but I'll put up a lot more. Yes, the purple color font is all quotes I got all over the net. I didn't write it, I wish though to be as smart and intellectual as that.haha.

xoxo
ainR.

enough said.

"Guys drink to forget about girls. Girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor. When girls are in love they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can’t forgive. Girls can forgive but can’t forget. Guys break up when they feel love from another girl. Girls break up when they feel the separation from their man. Guys feel curiosity towards all girls. Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in them. When guys are heartbroken they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl. When girls are heartbroken they try to find his characteristics in another guy. But finally, guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last."

So true

"I am the kind of girl who enjoys the chase. I get a thrill when it comes to winning someone over and making them fall in love with me. Then when rough times in a relationship emerge, I run off kicking and screaming. I analysed my actions once. I came to the conclusion that I’m afraid of getting too close to someone because I’m scared to get hurt. When a boy takes one step forward, I take three steps back. I’ve done this my whole life. It is my greatest downfall, the reason I have lost so many loves."

Joyful Joyful

so today, somehow I was in my good mood. So usually I'll laugh at anything, even though my mom was so mad I found it so hilarious. So I was eating lunch with my brother and he as always was wearing only boxers. So then my neighbour/ mom's friend was coming to visit since mom is leaving tomorrow. So my brother was like "alamak!" since he was wearing nothing but boxers.

ain: cepat cepat
nabil: cepatt laaaa cepatttt
he was eating so fast and then Bing!
nabil: alamak tak cukup cepat.

hahahaha I found that so funny. The way he said it just made me spit my water I was drinking. haha woops, and I was laughing so hard and he was like what's so funny? and as soon I was fine and trying to tell him what was the funny part I laughed again, it goes on for 4 times or so until he had to leave because the neighbour needed to come in. bahhh, best part of my day.hahahaha.

OH, and I was thinking if I change my nickname from ainR./ ain to rain. I mean I was looking at a tag someone wrote down and they only wrote rain instead of nurain and I was BAH! I want people to call me that. soooo, yeah some people in school have been calling me newrain so why not just take what people give me and use it like I own it :)

rain rain,
ainR.

The end

I'm done with writing about the feelings that I think I'm having. So, I'm sick after getting back and now I'm stuck at home with lots of homework which I don't even know anything about the topics since I haven't been going to school lately but I am still here on the computer and couldn't careless about school. I do however miss my friends in school.

anywayssssssss, mother is leaving to malaysia soon. Yes, before us and alone. Since we have school, she have the right to leave us and go back home. bah. If she's gone, and no one will serve food at home and washing the clothes, guess to whom the job will be pass down? yes.me. welll I have only for a couple of weeks to do so and bam, home sweet home! My heart is beating so fast everytime I think about going home because I get over excited with the people I love and the people who love me will be around me plusssss the year end sale is coming. So yes home  sweet  home.

well yesterday, oh wait no no, todayyy is my brother's birthday. the one in Malaysia. So we called him for about half an hour. Oh how much I miss that boy -.-
Happy Birthday Naqib.


overjoyed and sick,
ainR.

I want you to want me.

ERRRRRRRR, i need to get over you. I have to get over you. I have thousands of reasons to not love you but yet I still pick to like you. I need to go to an ocean, empty one and scream my lungs out. I need to get it out.urgh.

"I’ve come to this conclusion: the reason I protect my heart so, and build walls up, is because; I know if I let my guard down, and let someone in, I would surely be head over heels in a heartbeat."

trying hard, 
ainR.

Damn right.

I was bored.

"You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable."

Knock me outttt.

Back and exhausted and weak. I miss you, but I can't fall in love with you.

I believe that "I like you" and "I love you"  are completely different. I don't love you yet or won't ever because I guard my heart. So i use the like word. Because you don't get those differences between like and love. Like is when you see their flaws and judge it and care about their flaws. But love you see nothing but the inside. bah I'm not going to think deep. No falling inlove :)

bitch,

ainR.