Different perception.

Whenever you call, I'll roll up

2011-05-05T19:28:00.001+03:00

Hello thurrrr,

I don't know what triggered me to go on blogger and write a new post but I'm here. Just kidding, I do know why, I was just checking my friend's blog and I was like 'what the hell' why don't I write a post on my blog.

I cannot believe that my last post was a year ago, how crazy is that? Time fly so fast that I think most of this year was a blur, a 'there' year. You know, like a year that was just 'there' nothing special. Sophomore year is pretty plain and boring, so why should I babble about my sophomore year? I don't think I can even remember what happened on the first day of school, heck, the first day of school on the new year (2011), or even yesterday. K, the yesterday part was a bit of an exaggerate but you see my point here? That I don't know what happened this year.

I became more fragile though, that I do know. Why? Due to several big problems, and lots of little problems combined together. Does that even make sense, I believe so.

I think I'll start updating my blog a bit more that I use to. For sure not once a year, maybe 4 times a year? Or if you're lucky, once a month!

But for now,
xoxo
ain.

Hello loser faces.

2010-06-07T21:37:00.000+03:00

Oh em gee, I was scanning trough my blog, and I've realized that my first post was summer 2009. That was like almost a year ago. Now, Summer 2010 is coming. Joyful joyful. My heart skipped a beat everything I think about how fun summer will be with my girlies and em boys. I think my heart just skipped right now. See what i mean? See how excited I am for summer.

Not to forget that my freshmen year have been nothing but fun. Thanks girlies, Jen, Haya, Ahd, for making it obber fun and not boring. Though however, we had an argument and we totally handle it maturely and that is why we still click and as you may call it "best friends". I tend to keep from calling them best friend out loud because I'm scared of losing them as soon as I claim them as my best friend. However, I would say that they are.

Aina, stay strong love, 9 more days I'll be back. Not that you will read this, or anyone would for that matter.

I survived first high school year without having any big emotional boy-girl dramas. Oh I'm so glad. Ahmad is moving away, to Canada. I hate you for moving. I fell for you, and you never return back my love so I'm stuck. Well, in that case, fuck you. No, I would actually won't say that, I care about you too much to say that. Have fun there kay? you said you may come back. do come back. please?

SUMMER MOTHER FUCKERS!

misses.

2010-02-04T15:26:00.000+03:00

wellll, i was just reading my blog. Today, I decided to visit my blogspot. And , i read through some of the post and now I realise just how much i miss writing my day and my feelings out. I guess, in a way, i love blogspot more than tumblr. However, I have started writing a personal diary, not online diary, handwritten ones. I guess there is where I write my deep deep feelings on, but it takes forever to write, and my hand hurtssss. So I guess, since no one actually know that I'm back on blogspot, i'll write every day like i use to. It feels great. well today, my girls and I are planning to go to a big big party. it was quoted on the invitation "will be one of the hottest party of 2010", well guess what hunny, you have to make it the hottest one. Since I've been cravingggg for a good party to go to.

Yesterday was kind of fun i guess, spend time with the usual. Jen, Haya, Aziz, Hashem and one oddly person was there. unexpected, labban. you weren't suppose to be there silly billy. pfft. i dont like you retarddd.hahahaha, but, apart from labban, all of those people helped me out yesterday. i had a huge breakdown. sorry peeps for being such a boob. such a party pooper. well today, i will get a little tipsy and forget all those problems i've been having and just say, fuck all bullshits.

here yee, here yee. this is the new me. the new rain. the new newrain. all happy, perky, cheerful me. fuck those problems. i got no problems no more. i'll take little matter on boys, and big on parties. yes. yes. that's my new resolution. not school no more, screw my failing grade. ill do whatever it takes to live my life as a normal teenager, not the teenager that lives in a cage no more. i'll make the best of what i got.
funnnnnnnn.

rain.

Moved to tumblr

2009-12-05T12:59:00.001+03:00

officially moved to tumblr.
http://newrain.tumblr.com/

When zombies attack.

2009-12-04T19:48:00.000+03:00

hahaha, the tittle was utterly out of randomness (:

anyways, I'm am so sick right now. So yesterday I sent mother to the airport then get back home and go online as usual. Then hachummmm, I sneezed.non stop. It goes on for 5 or 6 times. annoying? I know. Then it was about 1am. or so I was going to bed, but I couldn't so I went downstairs and my stomach started to demand for food. boooo. The only good food I saw was grapes. well I said to my self I'm just going to eat one, then nom nom nom I stuff more and more, how much I realise I was really hungry. I finished the whole bunch of grapes. Then I went back up, my body started to heat up. URGH, I couldn't sleep, but I listen to some soft melody music, sort of like a lullaby and zzzzz.

now, everytime I wanted to sleep I couldn't. My nose is blocked. effffff emmmm elle. yes it FML, which stand for fuck my life. urgh.

vulgar,
ainR.

You're so lame -.-

2009-12-03T20:55:00.000+03:00

Mom: i think im sick, mata pon dah rasa panas panas

Nabil: nabil bukan mata je panas, satu badan hot

ain: oh dear god, bagi baldi

Nabil: buat apa?

Ain: nak muntah,HAHA

Nabil: laaa ingat nak baling air bagi nabil cool down

Ain: oh god -.-

hahahahaaha, you're so lame brother -.-

I think I want to write a list of things to do in malaysia so atleast I wont forget stuff, so hmmm :)

"I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to hug you, I have the ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart that’s aching to see you smile again."

Please take me with you.

2009-12-03T17:49:00.000+03:00

Mom, take me with you? I need to get out of here. I do. please? bleh, no point of me saying this anyways, it won't work, So here you go, have a safe trip over there. I know you'll have fun. Hug charlie for me, take good care of him. Tell him I miss him. please mom, take good care of him. Oh send my regards to the peeps, the family for me.urgh, I so envy you right now. Whateves, there's sale going on here soon. So yeah, beat that.

oh wait, no. Shopping over there is so much better. so yeah you did beat it.
Well soon I'll be visiting you, so yeah my brother and I are going on the plane alone without any adults. Oh no, brother you are technically 18 -.- so you are responsible for my action and my bags. hahaha. yesh, carry it for me.thankssssss.

love you moooooooooom :)
ainR.

Quotes.

2009-12-03T15:17:00.002+03:00

I think I'm going to start posting more quotes on here that I've read on net. I know I have been posting alot, but I'll put up a lot more. Yes, the purple color font is all quotes I got all over the net. I didn't write it, I wish though to be as smart and intellectual as that.haha.

xoxo
ainR.

enough said.

2009-12-03T14:26:00.001+03:00

"Guys drink to forget about girls. Girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor. When girls are in love they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can’t forgive. Girls can forgive but can’t forget. Guys break up when they feel love from another girl. Girls break up when they feel the separation from their man. Guys feel curiosity towards all girls. Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in them. When guys are heartbroken they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl. When girls are heartbroken they try to find his characteristics in another guy. But finally, guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last."

So true

2009-12-02T17:16:00.000+03:00

"I am the kind of girl who enjoys the chase. I get a thrill when it comes to winning someone over and making them fall in love with me. Then when rough times in a relationship emerge, I run off kicking and screaming. I analysed my actions once. I came to the conclusion that I’m afraid of getting too close to someone because I’m scared to get hurt. When a boy takes one step forward, I take three steps back. I’ve done this my whole life. It is my greatest downfall, the reason I have lost so many loves."

Joyful Joyful

2009-12-02T14:40:00.000+03:00

so today, somehow I was in my good mood. So usually I'll laugh at anything, even though my mom was so mad I found it so hilarious. So I was eating lunch with my brother and he as always was wearing only boxers. So then my neighbour/ mom's friend was coming to visit since mom is leaving tomorrow. So my brother was like "alamak!" since he was wearing nothing but boxers.

ain: cepat cepat
nabil: cepatt laaaa cepatttt
he was eating so fast and then Bing!
nabil: alamak tak cukup cepat.

hahahaha I found that so funny. The way he said it just made me spit my water I was drinking. haha woops, and I was laughing so hard and he was like what's so funny? and as soon I was fine and trying to tell him what was the funny part I laughed again, it goes on for 4 times or so until he had to leave because the neighbour needed to come in. bahhh, best part of my day.hahahaha.

OH, and I was thinking if I change my nickname from ainR./ ain to rain. I mean I was looking at a tag someone wrote down and they only wrote rain instead of nurain and I was BAH! I want people to call me that. soooo, yeah some people in school have been calling me newrain so why not just take what people give me and use it like I own it :)

rain rain,
ainR.

The end

2009-12-01T12:07:00.001+03:00

I'm done with writing about the feelings that I think I'm having. So, I'm sick after getting back and now I'm stuck at home with lots of homework which I don't even know anything about the topics since I haven't been going to school lately but I am still here on the computer and couldn't careless about school. I do however miss my friends in school.

anywayssssssss, mother is leaving to malaysia soon. Yes, before us and alone. Since we have school, she have the right to leave us and go back home. bah. If she's gone, and no one will serve food at home and washing the clothes, guess to whom the job will be pass down? yes.me. welll I have only for a couple of weeks to do so and bam, home sweet home! My heart is beating so fast everytime I think about going home because I get over excited with the people I love and the people who love me will be around me plusssss the year end sale is coming. So yes home sweet home.

well yesterday, oh wait no no, todayyy is my brother's birthday. the one in Malaysia. So we called him for about half an hour. Oh how much I miss that boy -.-
Happy Birthday Naqib.

overjoyed and sick,
ainR.

I want you to want me.

2009-11-30T20:13:00.001+03:00

ERRRRRRRR, i need to get over you. I have to get over you. I have thousands of reasons to not love you but yet I still pick to like you. I need to go to an ocean, empty one and scream my lungs out. I need to get it out.urgh.

"I’ve come to this conclusion: the reason I protect my heart so, and build walls up, is because; I know if I let my guard down, and let someone in, I would surely be head over heels in a heartbeat."

trying hard,
ainR.

Damn right.

2009-11-30T17:36:00.000+03:00

I was bored.

"You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable."

Knock me outttt.

2009-11-29T20:59:00.000+03:00

Back and exhausted and weak. I miss you, but I can't fall in love with you.

I believe that "I like you" and "I love you" are completely different. I don't love you yet or won't ever because I guard my heart. So i use the like word. Because you don't get those differences between like and love. Like is when you see their flaws and judge it and care about their flaws. But love you see nothing but the inside. bah I'm not going to think deep. No falling inlove :)

bitch,

ainR.

Breathe

2009-11-23T21:53:00.001+03:00

I'm trying.
trying...
so hard.

let me go. Just let me go. I fell for you just like you wanted, and now just leave me. You're hurting me. I'm not happy. you win. Now, just let me go. If you do 'love' me like you said, then show it to me. I don't use the L word. I never use the L word. Because I like to think of it this way, I don't have a heart just so I wont get hurt. But, you made me have a heart, good for you. You took it away from me, and now I'm falling hard, ready to catch me?I dont think so. So I'll be back the way I was, happy and heartless.

bye,
ainR.

I want your body

2009-11-22T22:25:00.002+03:00

I feel so tired today. So weak. I can't handle being weak. What curse have you put on me? Take it off. I was so fine until you confess. You used the word. It feels good, but no you hurt me. You lied, its like you're forcing me to stop liking you, if it so then let me go. We are no good together. I feel warm, I feel sick.

Well today I went and support my bro watched him sing in choir. I'm so proud of you nigss. haha. You're leaving soon to college, why brother whyyyy? you really want me to stay alone here, the place where we both have something in common because clearly we both no like this place.

anywayssssss, I'm out
ainR.

Shoes.

2009-11-21T22:52:00.000+03:00

So I mean, I think going shopping deserves a post about it. I think. I mean since it myyyy blog, I'll brag/backstab/bitching as much as I can. hoho. I have no idea that mother have such good taste in fashion? I mean I know she's into it and I'm like her project. So she'll so buy me stuff that is so in trend and it's so cool that I'm the only girl. Thank god. hahaha :) Wellll I've been craving for new shoes for weeksss daysss with pure, I tell you with pure agony. Finally I got one. yeay. new jeans, new hat :) so proud to have a mother like you mom.hahaha.

oh that's the good part of my day.

You asshole, motherfucking bitch. I swear if aina wasn't there I would've have plan to do a bitchy revenge on you. Thank god I'm better than you.

oh well. that's it.

boooottssss,
ainR.

Exactly

2009-11-20T01:00:00.002+03:00

"I’m telling you, you don’t want to fall for me. you don’t even wanna be with me. I’d make a terrible girlfriend. I’m horrible at keeping in touch with people; I’d forget to call. I change my mind way too much and I love going out with friends; I can’t settle. I’ve fallen in love and had my heart broken, more than once by the same boy. I lost the pieces so don’t bother trying to put them back together, I’d never cheat on you but I’d make you worry. You don’t want to fall for me, but I’m falling for you. And if it’s okay with you, I want to change all those things about me, just to be with you."

Varieties

2009-11-18T13:17:00.000+03:00

You see, I want to try on something different rather than just use this plain and simple blogspot, I would love to try tumblr. But I know, sooner or later it'll be hanging and just a waste of time, but I'll try to keep it on the DL, yes yes down low for now until if it works with me than I'll post on the url.

anywayssss, this blog is for me telling you that I skipped a whole week of school. Yes that deal with mom works :)

A seal deal.

2009-11-17T23:21:00.001+03:00

Motherrrr, a deal is a deal mother. What was the conversation we had mother?

Mom: ain jom lah gerak pergi tengok abang sendiri perform
Ain: eh malas ah -_-
Mom: ainnn, jom ahhh
Ain: HA esok ain tak yah gi sekolah ah cam tu *eye brow up* hahaha
Mom: ha okay duduk rumah senyap senyap, I'm going out tomorrow
Ain: pergi lahhh :)

hehehehehehe
mom. Thanks for working with me to not let me go to school tomorrow :) I guess in a way I've missed on alot of gossips. screw that. I'm having fun resting, sleeping, having zero tolerance with the fucking messed up internet :) oh yeah, today is my brother's birthday. haha

ain: "OMIGOD YOU'RE AN ADULT" *punch punch*
nabil: hahahah senyap ah ain -.-

I love you too father, and my other hommie back there in malaysia

well I love my family :)
ainR.

New soul

2009-11-17T09:48:00.001+03:00

mhm, yes I'm still at home, skipped school.Fourth day in a row :) peaceee

baby are you down down down.

2009-11-16T13:31:00.000+03:00

I know I just blogged like 3 hours ago?but I just had to put aina on here. Since we webcam today :)

You cannot be any cooler than us :) Aina I love you. I swear I do.But ew, I am so not gonna go all goowey stuff on you, like i miss you and stuff like that, you know better. Soon we reunite my friend, soon we will :)

boom boom pow

2009-11-16T11:29:00.002+03:00

I decided to add some songs/musics to my blog because I would like to share to the world my favorite songs at the moment. :)

It's normal

2009-11-16T10:06:00.002+03:00

So I was talking to one of my guy friends, and we were talking about my crushes for some weird reason andd he kept on guessing names, so I asked him it's not obvious? and he was like no, you're like that with everyone. haha I know. and he also said I love how you like someone and it goes away like nothing happen. yes one of my specialties, guarding my heart.hahaha. It's good to know that you know me good enough buddy. I guess I'm not the only who realize what I do. anywayssssss, this is my third day skipping school. :O fun fun fun. I skipped biology test. :O oh well I'll make it up soon enough, like maybe the day after tomorrow, I didn't touch the book, I have to studyyyyyyy. well atleast now I know how the test was, hard. Even the geekiest person in class said so. Not like I talk to them or anythingg butttt, yeah it was hard. :O hahaha yeah, I'm sort of into this :O sign. I dont know, i find it pretty funny.hehe :O

vulgar,
ainR.

Alphabet soup

2009-11-14T13:47:00.000+03:00

It is certainly not fun when,
your body is higher than 36 celcius
i think thats the average human body temperature
and when you have a runny nose
puking the whole day
sneezing most of the time.

well that's the negative part of having a fever
but,
skipping school,
staying home alone,
getting food from neighbors
like like alphabet soup

best thing ever.
so here i am, at home alone sick. :)
ainR.

Internet is such an ass.

2009-11-12T00:37:00.002+03:00

as state on the title, it is being such a jerk.

I had to go to my dad's office at night, after my dad comes back home just to do some freaking stupid mother fucker research for the biology report.fuck.Then after im done with the research, i had to finish the report, i went back home from dad's office at almost 12, and finish the mother fucker homework at 2.Then, i had a stupid other long mother fucker homeworks.Then today there was the halloween party, wanted to go but sold out so then i hang at jenny's with haya and did some stuff. Then we found out that the party got to wild since there was no adults and drinks and too many people, the door broke down because there was like three guys try to crash it. The guard kick them out so they hang around the area for awhile and watch the fight that was happening for some reason there was a fight, guess who came? the VIPs. The honored guest, the police officers.busteddddd. somehow i wish i was there, but then again, i had a good day in jenny's with haya, samir, ahmad and furkan. even though we hang with the boys for only 20 minutes, but a good solid fun 20 minutes. and now i think i have a sore throat with a cold and a bit sick so i went and took a looooooooong relaxing bubble bath. Urgh, tomorrow i have this stupid student council stuff to attend. fuck. I want some mother fucking rest. please. and the mother fucker president is so pathetic, she needs some mother fucking help with that face i think you'll be lonely foreves. oh and btdubs, which stands for btw, which means by the way you need some stache shaving, you have a freaking mustache.urgh. No one gets to give me attitude,no one. got it presfuckingdent? then after the stupid student council event, i have to go to my mom's event, which is to play bowling. bleh. i want some rest, i want a day where i can just sit back and relax and think about how my life could've been or would have been if i didn't move by laying on the bed with chips and chocolates and listen to some taylor swift song with a face mask and not being bothered with anyone, no fones, no mom yelling out, no brother making fun of me, no dad giving me a whole lecture, no stupid trouble with going online. just some "me" time. The whole week is so stressing, urgh. and oh so great, the report card is coming out soon, shit. I didn't do most of the homeworks, I don't pay attention to class, I don't study, and there will be 80% chance that most of my classes will held a chapter test to put 'some' grade in the report card. I want to go home, I want to hug my friends and making fun of people and have 100% pure fun. oh and btw, i got my bracess off. weee :)

i think this blog is getting too long,
ainR.

Fifteen

2009-11-07T16:39:00.002+03:00

just fyi, I didn't give that thing on my head to my self, a friend did.

The girls.

Good day. I had billion of group hugs, once I couldn't breathe. haha. honestly. Samir and Ahmad started singing and so did everyone, Samir started stuffing food to me, french fries, popcorns, and cookies. Iloveyouguys :)

Billions of thankyou,

ainR.

Soon To Be

2009-11-06T11:22:00.001+03:00

15.
yes soon to be 15.
I'm turning 15 tomorrow, yeay me.
and no, I'm not doing anything for my self.
If any plans going to happen, is with family
or I don't know my friends decided to do something for me.
but fo sho, I'm not doing anything for myself :)

I would most likely do a party what so ever
If I was in Malaysia, and I'm not.

Welllllll, I'm going to Malaysia soon.
about like a month or so? oh I don't know.
hehe, duh I know the exact date, but
I'm not saying it here.
hehehehehe.

Guess who I talked to today, that dude,
whats his face, ayammmm.hahahaha
yeah him, he haven't gone online for awhile since
SPM nak dtg kan ? well good luck to the SPM candidates :)
ayam, kauuuu nnt aku nak belasah boleh? :p

toodles,
ainR.

2009-11-03T22:19:00.000+03:00

aren't they awesome?

Amieeeeeee happy birthday loveeee. you dah 17 kannn awwww :) rugi nya i tak de dekat malaysia nak tepung/telur you dgn powk semua.grrrrr. I miss you lah bestieeee.

ily,

ainR.

Maleeha Ghani

2009-11-03T18:27:00.003+03:00

Remember this day love?

This one is for you maleeha ghani. yes the girl who leaves me, ditched me to go to canada. urgh. i seriously miss you. Come back now? well I bet you're having fun there. Let me remind you of the memories we had.

remember my first day? mix and match day. that ugly pink dress of yours?hahaha. the magazines. bleh. seventh grade where we are so close. It's always the ain and maleeha. and then 8th grade. you're stupid fucking last year. I remember halloween, i was a dead bride and you're my mime. hahaha. and then valentine. hahaha. it was fucking empty. well we met sully there right? and then grad. remember that day? waxing? the whole day at my house? getting ready? having a "spa" day with me?hahahah. well overall I love spending time with you, and jenny's house, with that boy. alaa. hahaha. i miss you. i do. i do. very. there's so many of our memories. I couldn't say it all because it will take up like a big big post and you will get bored of reading it.

next year. winter. I'll come there. I'll track you down. I'll be your worst and greatest nightmare ever.

oh and Happy birthday. :)

ainR.

I need a rest.

2009-11-02T19:54:00.001+03:00

I'm so overwhelmed with school stuff.
I'm so occupied.
I need a break.
I need to have more than 5 hours of sleeping.
I need to do some yoga.

haha okay no, I don't do yogas

but I need to calm down.
homeworks needs to be lessen.

I need to be at home.
I need to be massage.

yes, I do need alot of stuff.
I'm so stress,
no stress is overrated.
but heck.

My life wasn't dull until now. My life had some plots lately, but not anymore.

Over-worked,
ainR.

2009-11-01T21:38:00.001+03:00

damn.

Claps

2009-11-01T21:31:00.003+03:00

when November reaches. It's not up to the peek yet, but soon will be my friend, soon will be. wow, I guess this is like my almost 90th post already. I did not expect my self to be a very-seldom-type-of-blogger kind of person, but heck, I'm writing like almost everyday. I tried to blog a couple of years ago, guess what happen, it went to the grave.sad. I had like three blogs, but after about two post I gave up. Guess I had no writing creativeness what so ever. Well, I'm not saying I have now, but bleh, I'll stop talking about this now, I'm just making it worst. Well maybe, just maybe one of the reason I blog alot is that I go online very, I said very often. heck. This post doesn't even have a story, but yet here I am still writing on this post. Bleh. Myspace, Facebook, and all those jazz are getting really boring, like really boring. and yet here I am still checking my facebook everyday, and still have notifications and all those stuff but bleh, it's just too..common. And myspace, I don't go on it everyday, boring I tell you. You know what is a good website, no no, very nice website, mylifeisaverage.com. Funny I tell you. It's like a twin of FML but, instead of fucking your life, you're saying that you're just the same as others. Not depressing right? :) Wow, just as soon as I said I don't blog alot, I still ended up with this full typed post.

the end,

ainR.

2009-10-31T22:16:00.001+03:00

The speechless moments

2009-10-31T21:22:00.000+03:00

oh my fucking god, I miss you both.

aina, you always sees the best in me, iloveyou.

asal korang lawa sangat la babi -.-

you guys, remember this? I was acting pretty gay, i know.hahahah

you make me laugh all day long, imissyouhanim.

I was looking through my pictures, and all I saw was most of you guys. yes, you guys are my life.

I sound so corny and cheesy, but screw it.

ainR.

Fuck this, I'm going to Hogwarts

2009-10-31T21:05:00.000+03:00

yes.
I so want to go there,
and meet Harry Potter and Snape.
-
I hate this fucking place
especially when, the visa for my brother is not approved.
so, no, my brother ain't coming
This is one of the reason I hate this fucking fucked up place.

well, my mom knows how to made my day after dropping that bomb,
so she bought me gummy bears.
thank you mommy for buying 3 whole big packets of gummies.
but, it still didn't change about the fact that, November is not that wonderful no more.

It will be better, if the school will be close for sure starting from hajj break to winter,
instead of opening the fucking school after hajj, and then close it again for winter
that is such a fucked up plan,
it's only two weeks we go to school, then
bam close again. ridiculous I tell you.

2009-10-30T17:46:00.000+03:00

"I’m not good at expressing how I feel. It takes a lot for me to be honest. I don’t fall for people easily, and I keep my heart guarded.

Exactly.

My very sexy messy room

2009-10-30T15:24:00.003+03:00

I decided yesterday that my room need of an update. no, not cleaning. two weeks ago, I painted one wall, yes just one. Yesterday, I put posters/ my pictures on there. My idea is that, the one wall is a statement wall, where everything, anything that inspires me, shall be up there. Yes, I have a white board, for homeworks, important notes like, how many more days to go for malaysia. Yes, I have a keyboard, and no, I suck at it. Same goes with the guitar, but I just can't play at all. I know, my room is very utterly in need of a clean up, but I just have to say that, messy is sexy.hahahaha. It's another way of me saying, fuck I'm lazy. :)

2009-10-30T14:10:00.001+03:00

now say it with me, damnnnn

Same procedures

2009-10-30T14:06:00.000+03:00

hahahahaha. What a joke. Another rumor is going around about me, yeay. no no, big yeay. -.- I like a good friend of mine now?sheesh you guys. grow up :) I'll ignore this one, because it's always like this. Whoever I'm close with, I like him. real kidding. Come on people, keep it coming, the rumors. I can handle it. I'm stronger than this. I've gone through this type of rumors alot of time. It doesn't cut,at all. Oh and ahmad, i love you. Keep on telling me the rumors okay? I want to know, it's a joke to me. :)

life as an almost 15 years old single teenager bitch :)

bitchy,
ainR.

2009-10-29T11:32:00.001+03:00

I just had to put my picture on here, since I barely put me on here.

Success!

2009-10-29T01:05:00.000+03:00

ho yeah, I actually finished drag me to hell, and I think that this topic deserves a blog post.hahahaha.
wasn't that BIG wow.
well, it would've been.
if
I didn't mute it for most of the scenes.
hahahaha.
but, the ending
was a stupid one -.-
and plus it wasn't that scary because
I was multi tasking
chatting with AR

will try to get some good nap,
ainR.

A big coward

2009-10-28T23:07:00.000+03:00

I was too scared to watch drag me to hell. Z supposed to come today and watch it with me on our sleepover but she stood me up instead.haha -.- fine, you have a good reason to.I'll let you off this time. Anyways, I started watching it tonight and on about the 20th minutes, I was overwhelmed with the darkness and eyes of evil.haha.yes in other word, I was a coward. I stopped it. Even if the part where all the BOOM didn't start yet, I'm still a little bit freaked.hahahaha.

you know what will get my head off that movie?
what I like when,
A boy plays with my hair,
kisses my forehead,
winks at me,
spiky hairs which includes fohawk.

I love those traits.

and guess what I found out today,
A.Kamil is going to All American Rejects' concert.
screw my life in saudi,
I just want to go back.
I hope that the school closes after Hajj,
so then we will go back home earlier :)
well we will be having a virtual school,
but atleast I'll be at home,
and have fun and all that jazz.

hoping for miracle,
ainR.

2009-10-28T21:54:00.000+03:00

"She wasn’t ready to settle down, she told her friends. That was one way of putting it. Another was would have been that she had not found anyone to settle down with. There had been several men in her life, but they hadn’t been convincing. They’d been somewhat like her table - quickly acquired, brightened up a little, but temporary. The time for that kind of thing was running out, however. She was tired of renting."

2009-10-28T21:41:00.000+03:00

"I guess you’re right; I’m afraid. I’m afraid to put my guard down. I’m afraid that if you know who I am, you won’t feel the same. And I’m afraid that once my barrier is defeated and I’m comfortable, that you’ll walk away. Because that’s what everyone’s done anyway.

2009-10-27T21:00:00.001+03:00

I wish I can pull that off

2009-10-26T20:10:00.002+03:00

"When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, canceled play dates, dropped ice cream cones— we would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware, and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end.

Just keep your faith."

2009-10-25T22:23:00.000+03:00

Now look at those legs, duff's.

Naive heart.

2009-10-25T22:05:00.002+03:00

Arabic class = horrible. The teacher, oh good golly, you're so dumb, I'm so rude to you, but yet why do you still bother being nice to me? Here's how the class went today.

I was wearing sort of like the bunny ears thing, for fun.

He asked me if he could wear it,with politeness.

I said nope. straight face, that word.

He asked me am I sleeping,

I answered "My eyes are wide open" with attitude of course.

I was being loud in class,

He asked me to move to a different place,

He straight away grabs my bag,

I said "NO!put my bag down!"

"No, no I'll put it there for you"

"Just let go of it, I don't want you to touch it"

I yanked it out of him, and walked away.

Dare to still bother me Mr. I'm-so-lifeless?

I'll get more comebacks for you. Sure will.

Brotherrrrrr, come here fastttt! 20 more days right? and 18 more days braces off. 2 more month to go, for winter ♥

with attitude,

ainR.

Time after time

2009-10-24T19:07:00.000+03:00

oh whoops, I guess I haven't write on my blog for awhile now. Well no one actually read blogs and finishes everything anyways. So basically blogs, is a way to express your/writers feelings online. Not really for the people, because no one would read everything on it, they would skip a couple of lines and move on with their life anyways.

Urgh time. I've been looking back on my life and there's so little I've done. While at that time I thought I've done alot. Time just went by so fast. Well I know everyone knows that fact, but it's too real, like a perfect statement that you just have to rewrite the exact thing. I wish, I'm still 4 years old, running with diapers around the house with the mild bottle and having my hair tied in two with red ribbons, but I do most of the time wished I'm 18 and have a wise brain with long legs.haha. It's good to dream right? But, for right now, I'm in the present where none of those I have, so I'll just focus on being a teenager who is stuck in Saudi Arabia with agony.

I should stop thinking negative now, it's not healthy. Well, my birthday is coming soon. you know what else is coming soon? new moon, and a trip down to the dentist. A happy dentist equals to a happy ain and a happy ain is caused by a perfect straight teeth with a line on it. Which is retainers. Retainers are fine. OH BIG THING, forgot, how could I. My beloved eldest brother is coming on November too. November, How great can you be. Bro, beli la hadiah untuk ain eh?hahaha. Please come here faster, this place is getting to boring, I need your coolness to be here with me so it will make it feel alive. Well make me feel alive. urgh enough, I'll stop getting excited, I should be this cool not showing my lovey dovey emotion towards my brother. Just get you ass over here. thank you :)

Plus, some other 411 about me is I'm so into ninjas now. So ninjas out there, I adore you.

Oh halloween party is coming soon, that will sparks things up around here. I'm getting bored.

boo,

ainR.

Paper heart

2009-10-17T18:34:00.000+03:00

Today, I had to swim in gym class. urgh. The water taste like shitttt. I feel so horrible after swimming, I feel not clean and tired and urgh. Plus, at the end of the day, the progress report was out. I guess in a way, it's fine. whatever.

kay, enough about school studying stuff.

I like you, I do. but, you're just to far away. I don't want you to be stuck with me when I'm like thousands miles away. We're still young right?So I want you to have fun. Is it wrong though to want you? I want to keep you.haha. hmm well. I've been single quite some time, and had so much fun with my guy friends without having conflicts. I want to keep continue to be like that, but I do want to be with you. I just need to get over the fact that I'm just pretty much hate living here. or even having a long distance relationship.

whatever,
ainR.

Will you be my hero?

2009-10-16T21:06:00.001+03:00

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

I just want to hold you
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight

You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero

good song right? My favorite song for now. It's like my theme song. Yes, that much i love it.

maybe I'll write about my feelings, just this time. Because I have no one to talk to right now. And I just need to get it out of my head. Are we together? Are we not? Since when are we together? Are you trust worthy?
I like you, I do. Just like, not more. You're a good guy but I don't know. I don't want a serious relationship. The thing is, I'm scared. Yes, there you go. I said it. I am. I'm scared of falling. So, Should I do it? I'm going with no. Most of me said no. But, I want to take a leap, and jump and have fun. Everyone will feel those heartbroken right? So why not I try it?

and the more I stay at this country, the more pain I discover. The more time I have to think, the more I think about, how my life would be perfectly fine living in other place than Saudi. Fine, the moving part I got over it, but the moving to Middle East, no, that's a big bomb came into my life. And, certainly not cool. I figured out about the moving thing for sure was on my 12th birthday party. I wanted to announce it, but I didn't have the guts to do so. Because at that time, I thought that if I didn't say it out loud than it wont come true. But it did, and it hurts. I know I have moved for two years. And going to three, but the pain came right now. It hits me that, how sucky my life is. Well maybe I have fun, but not as much fun as I do at my hometown. Eventhough if my day in malaysia was just to go out to aina's house. I still have fun. But, moving here change my perspective of life. I guess in a way, I've changed to a better person. I've figured out that I'm much more open minded. I see life differently. I think much deeper. Even if I do act like a kid sometimes, because I know, when I grow, it wont be the same. So I decided to act like a kid as much as possible, but to think as a mature teenager.

Well that's all I'm going to say for right now. No more other things.
Well there is more stuff, But, I'ts better if I don't publish it publicly.

be my hero?
ainR.

A night with stuff

2009-10-16T01:10:00.001+03:00

Okay so yes I went out. And no, I did not regret a thing.
H picked me up and took J and S too. Then we went to fuds and hang out for 30 minutes without ordering. We were tooooooo loud, because there were 30 people of us. So , we got kicked out.hahaha. The manager came and said "get out" oh yes. That's how loud we were. So we stayed outside for about 20 minutes socializing. Trying to get a ride to go to Chilis. But, we were separated to two groups. I picked the cool one. hahaha. Well I went with ahmad, Oh yeah, I forgot, Ahmad, Happy birthday my love :) and Alma, you sweet thing, Happy birthday too :). Stayed at chilis till like midnight?haha. I was going around, talking to boys like I own them. Oh i do. hahaha. I got roses :) yeayyy. But, the petals is all gone when I wanted to go home. Sad. Over all, good day.

love,
ainR.

Drop it lowwww

2009-10-15T15:30:00.000+03:00

So I guess I decided to get out of the cave today. I might as well just have fun with this country since I'm going to be here for awhile.
I'm going to,
straighten my hair,
do my nails,
urgh.
Life is so much better when I can sleep my way through the day.

But, I can't.

It's not wrong to complain right?
everyone is not always happy with their life,
or atleast at one point they weren't.
well I'm not happy, So I'll complain.

OH, YA. big news well for me. Braces will be off in a month.yeay.
I can't wait for november,
because,
its the due date for my baby.
hahahaaha.
no.
Braces off, My birthday, New moon, and then more good stuff will come,
like sale maybe?

getting ready,
ainR.

2009-10-12T20:50:00.002+03:00

Son of a bitch

2009-10-11T18:26:00.001+03:00

hahahaha, i know, i love the title too.
My arabic, fucking teacher is such a retard.
ass.
you're such a geek, you pull up your pants until your stomache is in it too. Do you know how humongously ugly your tummy?hahahaha.
You do not know how to leave me alone,
for god sake,
leave me alone.
Do you need to know how I am, or If im focusing in class every like 5 fucking minutes in your class?
literally you would ask me every 5 minutes.
your class, like each second in your class feels like a fucking whole year.
So what if I dont pay attention to you, I still get my work done,
even if i copy it?screw youuuuu.
Let me talk in your class.
god damn it!

alright, all settle,
ainR.

The beauty of procrastination

2009-10-10T19:50:00.002+03:00

So, I'm supposed to do this long homework in 2 weeks time, but I decided to just leave until the end, because I thought it was easy. And now, I'm so not bothered to do it. at all. But, what the hell, the progress report are coming out soon, so I have two choices, either a) Do it like right now and maybe not having a neat work, or a full mark, or b) fuck it.hahahaha.oh yes, I'll go with b for right now :) I might change my mind, because I seriously don't want any detention at all.

Oh and I found out a little bit more about this particular person, that I have no idea if might ending up with him. But, I don't know.

urgh,

so There is no point about writing this down,

doomed,

ainR.

Tortureeeeee

2009-10-09T00:08:00.001+03:00

OMFG.
school?
fuck.
urgh,
homeworks?
screw it.

I know, I've said something about missing school and crap, but for right at this very moment, I'm so annoyed with school stuff, maybe the word annoyed is understatement, je detest l'ecole tres beaucoup. haha my french skills :) well actually half of that sentence is with help from a friend.duh. so pretty much,
I hate school,
I hate homeworks,
I hate waking up early,
I hate not going online talking to you,
I hate just pretty much everything at this moment.
screw it.
well actually,
fuckkkkk.

alright then,
bye,
ainR.

I want to be her.

2009-10-04T23:52:00.000+03:00

Since I was a kid

2009-10-03T14:28:00.000+03:00

I bet you have a dream that you want to achieve and keep it till you do reach it. right? well I do. Since I was 9. oh yes. That far back. I've always wanted backpacking around Europe, because when I was 9, my mom did so, with her friends. No kids. No husbands. I envy her for that. My dream may be common but, I'm for real. Well maybe not backpacking since back pack are so small.ha right?you know, Europe, with their fine designs. Italy with shoes. self explanatory isn't it? haha. I want to go with my girlies. The girls I love the most.

I do also want to go to every Disney land. I think I have 2 more to go?ya?noh? well I haven't went to Hong Kong and Japan? there is one in Japan right? If I'm not mistaken. I want to ride space mountain, my first ever sort of roller coaster ride.super fun. I went to Disneyworld when I was six. I vaguely remember it though.

The best thing ever was,
we were going up on this sort of like a train, but like it goes around the town in San Francisco, and my grandma, yes grandma was there with us, grandma started screaming at the guy who's blocking us going up, she goes "sana lah, cucu aku nak naik ni, aku dah lapa dah ni!" with very serious face at the guy. Who have no clue what language grandma was talking, but clearly he knows she was really angry, so the guy backed off and let us go in.hahahaha.you amaze me nenek.

amused,
ainR.

The gossip girls.

2009-10-02T23:37:00.001+03:00

I had to post pictures from gossip girl I found on the net. I just had to.

He knows that his hot

they are so adorable :)

oh leighton.

I want your lips, your legs, your hair.

She leave me speechless

2009-10-02T23:30:00.001+03:00

So now, who said Kristen Stewart is a not?she's a hottie alright. and I'll prove it. You may recognize her from Twilight.

It's an act I put on for the world.

2009-10-02T20:31:00.002+03:00

I'm going to try to think deep now. It may sound corny, but what the hell.
So, yeah my school extended the break what so ever,
Instead of us going back to malaysia,
We stayed.
And those feelings where you just have no idea what life is, what's your future is going to be hits me.
well for right now, my brain is being really slow. very slow. So the stuff I write you may not understand it. I might not understand it. It may sound really geeky, but I miss school. Being force to do homeworks,okay not that but doing something that makes me feel alive.

I have been online alot. too much. but the thing is, I don't know what I've been doing online. But at least my time passed by good enough for me to survive the next day, and the next day, and you know the rest. Myspace, the used to be a big thing, so boring. I have been getting alot alot of unknown adders. why add me?whatever.

and right now, I don't know, the boy I liked(note the past tense) recently, well things are fine and all, but I went back to being me. Leave before anything get any serious. No one gets me, and I don't let anyone get me. So instead of saying people what I really feel, I lied. Well you may not understand or care what I write, but I feel better writing it.

Well my point is, this blog post has no point.
so toddles,
AinR.

I wish they live in my neighborhood.

2009-10-01T21:19:00.001+03:00

You know what will put some sparks in my life right now?hot guys.hahaha.oh yes. This is one of the post where I post hot guys pictures. celebs.duh.

Zac Efron

Ed Westwick

James Franco

Jesse Metcalfe

David Beckham

Shia Labeouf

Ryan Reynolds

Penn Badgely

Channing Tatum

with all my heart.

2009-09-30T01:16:00.000+03:00

Obvs, I was mad when I was writing the previous blog. I was mad at someone that does not concern you. But We are cool now, I was just alittle mad that's all.

I always wanted long good sexy legs like;

aren't those legs just such a turn on?

eff it.

2009-09-28T22:39:00.001+03:00

fuck you.

I'll get what I want

2009-09-28T14:29:00.003+03:00

mommmm!hahahah don't bother trying to drag me to that aunt's place unless unless you give me what I want. either webcam, speaker, or shoes. hahaha.come on ibu, pick pick.hahahaha. you know I'm going to win right?

urgh,
Last night, there was really no one online, or if there is not the one I want to talk to. soooo I went google-ing megan fox, emma roberts, adriana lima, leighton meester, blake lively, and taylor momsen. I wish they live close by, so they can share their fashion tips with me.hoho. well I didn't really go on google images but, I went to people's tumblr. They are really good. duh. oh and I just found some pictures that inspires me apart from the celebrities of course.

sources: fuckyeahskinnybitch.tumblr.com fuckyeahfashionn.tumblr.com fuckyeahleightonmeester.tumblr.com fuckyeahtaylormomsen.tumblr.com fuckyeahmeganfox.tumblr.com fuckyeahblakelively.tumblr.com fuckyeahadrianalima.com fuckyeahemmaroberts.tumblr.com

Momsen

2009-09-27T23:09:00.000+03:00

I wish I can pull off some rocky simple clothes just like Taylor Momsen. Okay maybe no simple, but like that. It is utterly indescribably amazing.mm I love what she wears most of the time.

inspired,
ainR.

Meester

2009-09-27T19:43:00.000+03:00

Well, I’m aware I lack some people’s easy grace with strangers. I don’t exactly make you feel like you’ve known me forever even though we just met. When I laugh, you might not smile just at the coquettish sound of it, and I may not be spontaneous or delightful or full of surprises, and my hair not sparkle when it catches the light

—
Blair Waldorf.

2009-09-27T18:24:00.000+03:00

I love you.

2009-09-27T15:07:00.006+03:00

AinR. says:

i need a gay bestfriend!
DESPERATE
haha
letak tu kat poster
amik kau

Nina says:

i want one

AinR. says:

semua gay dtg
kan,best oh gays

Nina says:

tau pun
especially yg suka shopping tu ka kan

AinR. says:

yeah man

Nina says:

hahaha

AinR. says:

bagi fashion tips semua

Nina says:

i nak nigga punye hahaha

AinR. says:

amik yang kaya je nina
hahaha
i nak cina kaya
Nina says:
eeee nnt ain busuk tak mandi
AinR says:
HAHAHA
eh babi -.-

we think alike now don't we?hahahaha.idiot. Knowing you from standard 4 right? never have we talked about gays,kan?HAHA.

iloveyou,
ainR.

Hi Mr I'm-so-oh-cool

2009-09-27T04:55:00.001+03:00

muhd zulhilmi, wahai cousin aku, ini post utk kau.cun?hahahaha. I think I'll be nice to you just this time, alright?tak payah ungkit.hahaha. you just know how to make me laugh don't you? you are like my own personal big teddy bear. hahaha. dont complain to me that you hate this post, because I took time for this alright? not. haha.this is all you deserve.

bye mok,
ainR.

He's a keeper

2009-09-27T02:21:00.000+03:00

Imagine if I have a boyfriend like this?

spiky hair, adorable looks, the fashion I adore

Insomnia

2009-09-27T02:03:00.003+03:00

say what now?I still can't sleep.

I so totally told everything to that one person about me. You listen to me without any complains. You helped me in life fyi. I don't know how I can survive without you. Even if my problem wasn't that big, you still listen to me whining about my so-called-with-a-lot-of-problem life. I adore you how you never complain about me or judge me. you know who you are.

oh and to all pmr candidates, even if no one actually read my blog because I don't want to go public but I still do want to wish you guys, good luck.aha. well well most of the people I know, know I'm not sitting for pmr,
lucky?
i know.
hahaha.

Well since I actually don't know what to talk to you about right now, I decided to blog. but right now I am going to .. Disappear to the kitchen la weh.

hello foooood,
AinR.

It bite.

2009-09-26T16:09:00.001+03:00

I think,
i think, I'm blogging way to often now?
yes?maybe?noh?
I use to hate to blog everyday, because there's not much going with my life.you think?

Since I had nothing to do, I looked back trough all the old pictures. I do miss them. before i moved,during the move, moved. I've changed so much, I thought I didn't. Looking back is hurtful. well, maybe I'm glad i moved?haha NO! My hair, it was long, and then went I was in form 1, I wanted to try something..simple? soooo, I chopped it all off.okay, not all, i might exaggerated a little, but most of them. I got the boy cut. hated it. But now, I can't imagine my self with long hair? I did bob cut last time. muka bulat la bai -_- hahaha.but now, it's average, but! it's wild, it's like all over the place, wavies, curled, straight put together. I had to think positive, because otherwise, I would hate life.haha well not life, I would hate emm..going out? and so I think of my hair like "messy is sexy" hahaha!okay no, bajet rockstar je :) hahahahaha! im far from being a rockstar. as if.

enough with hair now,maybe?
hahaha, i used to be so addicted to pink serious. I was the all pink girl. I know ew. My closet was basically had only a color, mom said "dah la ain, nnt ibu beli baju color color" i would go NO! I won't wear it anyways. well at that time. It's different now, i find my self so hard in pink. mhm.

so,
did you know that,
I was the shortest kot kat skola rendah -_-
hahaah i bet.

oh oh i remembered first day of standard one, during the assembly, we were singing lagu negaraku i think?well the point is, I, I emm ...puked?HAHA!yeah man, I wish I was still that cool, puking during assembly, oh and that stupid teacher won't let me go home? yo teacher, I was sick, you asked me to stay, I was seven lah.

Then the last year of skola renday, mine was like a dream? I won meeting kyle massey yada yada yada bintang kecil yada yada yada and after all those not-caring-about-study for upsr momments, I scored. Then, I begged my parents to throw me a big birthday party, and on that day, somewhat I was upset since my own bf didn't show up. explain to me boy. ahahaha.well ex. we're just good buddies now.

there's more to go,
ainR.

2009-09-26T05:27:00.001+03:00

Taylor Momsen, You are my fashion idol.haha.

"you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, and even months over analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, should’ve, would’ve happened. or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on."

-unknown.

Breathing without you

2009-09-26T04:38:00.002+03:00

It's 4.30 and I can't sleep. Not when you're around. haha,okay jiwang -.- tak letih pon doe. I think I slept alittle too much in the evening? weh, I'm eating too much MCD! tak healthy! hahaha ceh bajet gemok doe. I'm glad I have high metabolism, but I'm abit too skinny.no.It's definitely not a good thing.no. What if..hmm nevermind. I don't know how to be fat!good golly god. Gossip girlllll cepat la keluar. I'm so bored without you guys lah.hahaha. bajet kenal. I wish I can update my closet and chage it to all vogue and so in.please?with a cherry on top?can?hahahaa.urgh. wohoo rich guy,where are you?marry me!now!hahahahahaaha!

so yes, i am crapping. It's late night. happy bunny come and save me.what is the quote i remember from you?oh yeah "when life gives you lemon, squirt it at your enemy's face" good stuff. Can I have you happy bunny?please with love?

okaiiiii I got to stop talking like a dork.bye.
ainR.

2009-09-26T02:55:00.002+03:00

We need pills to sleep at night.

2009-09-25T23:20:00.000+03:00

ma, im not sad. I'm not depressed. please mum, i just need some..time alone?I'll be fine soon mum. I'm just having ummm..breakdown? I don't know mum. I'm just not feeling life. I don't feel like eating, I don't feel like shopping, I don't even want to get out of bed. I'm sorry mum for being such a downer. But I know I'll be alright. Just give me space. I love you. But, let me do what i want. Give me time. I need some time to be alone.

Our hand clasp so tight

2009-09-25T16:52:00.001+03:00

so into the song I will follow you into the dark - death cab for cutie.

Last night I was talking to JM. and so the question, "who am i" came up. I was figuring it out. I have no idea. JM answers; ain rafee is a girl who wants to try something new, who laughs at everything, with sometimes hot tempered. She hides everything with her cute braces smile. and the girl who is almost basically like me.Thank you love, for being so sincere with me. But there is more about me that I don't know. I don't want to know it now.no.I want to discover it little by little. With people around me, with love. haha. I don't want to think deep. not now.

My life is so dull. yes I'm repeating what I said last time. Because there is no more other word that can describe it.

wow, this school break is so boring, it's going by so slowly.urgh.

dorkiest person
AinR.

2009-09-23T15:02:00.000+03:00

doomnisity

2009-09-23T13:33:00.001+03:00

urgh!no!stupid stupid stupid!
fine,school is extending the break,
but why tell after the fucking raya?
why?screw you school.

yesterday, we planned to go back to Malaysia today, but nooooo the ticket price has to raise up for like RM12,000?what the fuck man?
are you kidding me.
screw you!

or else i would have done packing.

so pretty much, my life sucks.
still no climax.so lifeless.
like a house on raya day without pelita,without colorful lights,without people.
what a teenage years I have.
no fun,school all the time.
what the most fun people do here is to go to some fancy restaurant with friends and then hang at someone's house.thats all.and that you call fun?
no cinema?no good shopping?no ice skate?no water park?urgh.

I hate saudi arabia,
AinR.

2009-09-21T01:02:00.001+03:00

spent 3 days in a row with JM :) ily
yeah man,bitching about people is so our thing.hahaha.

will be going to yanbu with family friend for 2 days and a night.
so not in the mood to go.I would rather do my homeworks than go.
probabbly i will ended up with a lot of pictures smiling with my braces look so happy,fake.
Screw it.

selamat hari raya, hundreds of apologies from me.

-AinR.

2009-09-17T21:03:00.000+03:00

2009-09-17T20:00:00.000+03:00

we walk around town like we own it.

2009-09-17T19:59:00.000+03:00

what a day,pssh.

raya?
sunday?monday?
well how fun can it get anyways. I can predict what I'll do,
at 9AM, I'll be turning on my computer,
on my webcam,
and chat live with my family on the other side of the world :)
that will so make my day.

Then comes the boring part,
mom is hosting,yada yada yada. Go to this guy's house and BAM.
reach back home

sleep.

the end,
ainR.

2009-09-16T21:28:00.000+03:00

2009-09-16T19:39:00.000+03:00

The new code

2009-09-16T15:30:00.000+03:00

90210 season 2 episode 2 was so good. duh. I'm loving the good series from cwtv man.

WOHOO!school's out mother fucker.
Screw homeworks, no sleep till dawn.

but, I'm in this not my hometown place.
hmph.

90210,
ainR.

xoxo

2009-09-16T01:51:00.000+03:00

Gossip girl season 3 episode was the best thing ever. It totally made my day. Whoa I can't wait for episode 2. Serena so gorgeous, and blair and chuck, they're like the best couple ever. Nate is so hot, Dan you're just too cool now, Vanessa is being such a douche, Jenny and Eric are like the best siblings put together oh and Jenny is prettyyyy and and oh Carter is hot. and that other dude, the long lost child of Rufus and Lily, hmmm he's yummy.hahahaha.

you know you love me,
xoxo,
ainR.

And he stepped all over her

2009-09-15T22:43:00.000+03:00

Dear Kanye West, what were you thinking. Taylor is just accepting her award that her fans voted for her fairly. Beyonce is such a sweet heart to call her back up. Well im not gonna go all excited on this anyways. So whatever.

2009-09-15T20:16:00.001+03:00

Stupid.

2009-09-15T19:41:00.000+03:00

geesh, can the internet be any bitchy?as soon as i need the internet for my volleyball report, my internet is crashing. At least this site works, after like 10minutes waiting it to load. -.- and now I dont know what to do. My internet is down, and also I can't watch gossip girl, since i basically download them,but now I can't because of internet. So basically my day is ruined. And I can't find any website for me to write a stupid volleyball barely irrelevant report. I'm so mad.

effyou,
ainR.

2009-09-14T22:38:00.001+03:00

Forever 21

2009-09-14T22:31:00.000+03:00

Fuckinghotmodels.

Cinema, come to me.

2009-09-14T20:02:00.001+03:00

The Twilight Saga: New Moon Trailer in HD

must watch:
New moon
Final destination
Gossip girl
Chuck

Carvela

2009-09-13T23:52:00.000+03:00

I'm not your princess

2009-09-13T22:22:00.000+03:00

damnit, I hate listening to a soft melody music, because all the feelings of loneliness taking over me.
How I wish I'm back home. I always remember the memory in malaysia whenever I have this odd feeling,
especially summer 2009, I drove manual and auto car, I was learning with my dad. I remember how bad I drove manual, like it died for like 10 times.Auto was so much easier. duh.
And then there this time I hang out with my friends for the whole 2 days.
good times.

Now there's eid, and this is the third year I'm celebrating it here.
Don't bother asking what do they do here for eid,
because duh, i will always say it in a negative way,
I want to celebrate it at malaysia,
with my cousin, grandma, and my bestfriends

Gossip girl is tomorrow :) but I can download it the day after, temptation.

Tempted,
ainR.

you can't play on broken strings

2009-09-13T19:12:00.000+03:00

oh man,today was so freaking hot,
what is this weather?
its ramadhan, give me a break, its hot and i was thirsty. Temptation to break my fast was all over me.
my teacher, this really old cripple teacher name Mr. Reed is so pissing off man. He smiles like he's in desperate housewives, man what a fake.
I like to not listen to you, please and thank you.

Homeworks i hate you, you can't leave me alone, you follow me everywhere and you count every single mistakes i have. what is your problem?

I procrastinate on homeworks alot.

Oh you know what I like, guys with spiky hair or fohowk, it's freaking sexy. can i have a boyfriend like that?

peace and love,
ainR.